Maybe the purging is the only thing keeping my tummy getting smaller..
137.6. This morning. Closer to my goal.. but i feel so dirty..
Going to cut back. Not going to let myself get into a position where purging feels like the only way. It's just lately... It feels like It's the only way half of the time.. once even at school, but i resisted.
I tell myself everyday I won't do it again... But if i eat more than is necessary... It's all I can do to get rid of my sins.
I need this to stop.
People keep telling my how skinny I am getting, but my scale keeps saying that I'm still a fat loser.
Is purging really the only way..
Got some tips from a wrestler at my school today hope they help.
